Hey everyone. Do you remember me? I'm Rissa.
I had a bout of psychosis with delusions and tactical hallucinations. And also I found out I'm Bipolar I instead of II like my old quack told me.
How did I find this all out?
Well, I spent the last week in a place called the SEAY Center...also known as a "Behavioral Health Center". There I came off of my mixed manic stage (which is apparently really quite rare- here's a good definition I found (since the internet is better at explaining it than I am):A state of mind characterized by symptoms of both mania and depression seen sometimes in bipolar disorders. It is more common in bipolar children and women. A person experiencing mixed mania may feel agitated, angry, irritable, and depressed all at once. Because it combines a high activity level with depression, mixed mania poses a particular danger of suicide or self- injury. Treatment is by mood-stabilizing medication, sometimes accompanied by anti-depressant or neuroleptic medication.
I was irrational. When I went in I was hearing things, seeing things, feeling bugs crawl up my body and raindrops falling on my head that absolutely did not exist. For the first oh...3 days it felt like I was on a boat- the room was rocking back and forth. After a good couple days of being on Lithium they put me on Seroquel which makes me feel awesome. The Lithium is now at a therapeutic level (.75 or something) and I finally feel like myself again. I haven't felt like myself in months, to be honest. They said I've been in a constant manic state for probably a good month or so, which finally turned into mixed mania.
I met a lot of cool people at the looney bin, all of whom I'm now in contact with on facebook and my phone. I am sad I missed Lady Gaga last night since the men folk wanted to watch football.
But all in all...it was a terrible stay and I hope to never go back to that particular place. But after learning about my condition a little bit more, I found out staying in places like that might have to be a routine sort of thing. Just as long as it's not the SEAY Center, I am 100% cool with that.
Found out Katherine and Susan both got emotional when they heard about my situation. Katherine and I have been talking a lot. She's gonna come up here for my recital- Which i forgot to mention! I'm going to be doing a Burlesque 101 class! Starting THIS Thursday!!!! You guys have no idea how excited I am. I'm thinking my Burlesque persona name is going to be Paprika. She's got just a hint of spice~ :"> uhuhuhu
But yeah. If you see me online I'd love to talk to people (as long as it's not too...emotional and strenuous). I've spent a week bored out of my SKULL i need something to do. Maybe I'll make icons. I do have an Open RP
post up. It's kind of a tester for a community i'm thinking of opening. It's called "The Internet RPG" and basically it's livejournal for your characters. Simple as that.
Wellllllllllllllppppppp ok. I think I got everything off my chest. I don't want to sound needy but...I really could use some nice words and support right now. I'm coming off this mania and I don't want to crash into a deep depression. But maybe I won't either way. Mostly I just want to talk with people.
Ok I swear I'm done.